im so tired … put me to sleep please …

if i could turn back time , i would have choosen whats best for me and not what i like best .

i haven slept for days , i just want to have a good rest … like ill never need to wake up the next day , checking my mails , getting stressed out , acting again and again , im so tired

who can tell all my sorrows too , im really getting so tired .. i dont want to stop crying .. i dont wanna start thinking the minute i close my eyes .

i just wanna tell everyone i dint achieve anything at all, ALL THESE WHILE .. but cant . its a play that im in, there’s no return .

i hate you for causing me so much misery , i hate myself for thinking for a second that you would really love me, i hate myself for lying again and again that i would study hard this time round, yet failing . i hate myself for allowing you to BRAINFUCK me . i hate myself for skipping classes that allowed you to backstap me ! i hate myself for signing the attendance book for you when you werent in school! AND I HATE MYSELF FOR BARRED FROM EXAMINATIONS AND THAT I WASTED ALL THE MONEY THAT MY DAD PAID FOR . I HATE MYSELF FOR GIVING UP ON MY LIFE FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND MESSING MY WHOLE LIFE UP AND YES I HAVE NEVER REGRETTED BLOGGING ABOUT YOU GETTING PPL PREGNANT AND MINDFUCKING GIRLS , BECAUSE I HATE YOU SO MUCH . !! SO MUCH !!

YOU CAN JOLLY WELL THROW ANOTHER PUBLIC BIN ON MY HEAD, CIGG BUTT ON MY FACE , BUT IM STILL GOING TO SAY ” BASTARD I DONT REGRET BLOGGING ABOUT U ” AND RETRIBUTION WILL SOON HIT YOU OR YOUR LOVE ONES ”

im tired so tired , i really wanna sleep so much , so much , so much …  

nothing i do, can get me to bed . its 5.15am in the morning and im awake . im tired, both physically and mentally. i feel like my body is no longer able to take it . my emotions are getting over me, my temper is starting to flare up like no one’s business . 

we sat by mcdonalds this evening ranting all my sorrows , i cant forget nor forgive that bastard ! u know im talking about you here , yes you … !!

put me too sleep ! my eye bags are scary and its killing me .. my winkles are appearing and my facial condition is getting from bad to worst … makeup becomes cakey, my night application doesnt seem to work !!  

3.34 am , pondering …

just some overdue pictures .

We made our first Trip overseas to the to the island of Thailand, Phuket ! had lots of fun there , so much memories to be remembered! time was never enough when it comes to just both of us !! just as we were starting to enjoy the life at phuket it was time to come home to hot humid singapore..  how sad can that be !! i bet baby had lots of fun at phuket since it was his first time visiting phuket ! its countless times for me, as i used to fly over to phuket at least or once or twice a year last time .

and thats all for our short trip overseas !! beside having a good short holiday . feli was given a chance to work apon a yaukt with ziyi, jennifer and channelle ! great experinces gotta meet lots of people as well !! job scope was simply to sell the yaukt but it was sold long ago before the event started so .. JOB SCOPE WAS CHANGED TO … HAVING FUN … bbq out at sea , champange and lots of laughter !! and the best thing was we were paid .. BIG BUCKS for that event !! thanks to ziyi . ! and here are some pictures

and Lastly , feli is also involved in this Year Miss Singapore International 2010 My Very First peagent and I guess the Last as well ..   Catch me On TV in the Lastest TVC for Resort World , World Cup !! we will be screening the World Cup Live as well At RWS FORUM so catch the soccer babes there !

yes i disappeared for  a mth !! 31 days to be exact

been missing out so much on my blog …. ” i cant get to sleeep now hence im going start uploading all my pictures ”

MY AIRCON IS SPOILED FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS and that is giving me HELL !!

im counting down to OUR honey moon in MAY finally …. im getting a break on my own with hubby .. im dame excited about it , thinking of it makes me not wanna sleep at all !!

flights and accomdation has alrdy been booked !! we will leaving this 10 MAY  to PHUKET !!

I LOVE U KEN !!

I’m doing my sums now … feli is so excited !!! baby and i would be going for our first holiday together , yes my very first as well … with only me and love !

feli would be doing the planning for May’s trip to …. PHUKET ! we thought phuket would be a good place for , good food yet affordable. and of cause good bargaining shopping !! retail therapy would be the rest after so many months of deathly stress … but … feli’s gonna clear all the debts first ..

I’m planning to get my very first …. ”T” there !!! but … I’m still considering that very careful.. moreover its a life time thingy .. and hubby doesn’t like the idea totally .. he might decide to call off our wedding planned to be in 5-7 years time hahahahhas ! NO IM JUST JOKING !

its been a tired yet fun week … though i have been feeling so much of pain recently … no idea why .. but i hope ill find out whats wrong after the scan ..

its been months since i said i would get a full time job .. and yes i did .. and i would be officially starting work on the 1st April … and i sincerely hope sis would be joining me in that work place of mine ..

just a lil update of what i have been doing for the past week … besides spending precious time with love, i worked … for pan pacific st pats day … and was busy arranging event stuff .. would be heading for a couple of casting this week … and i pray to get the job … why … !! because i need moo-lahs …. for my trip to phuket … i need lots of it .. !!! cash cash !!

and YES ! hubby brought feli up to the flyer … lots of laughter I’m not going share with u my cutie’s joke of the day … but for a minute i thought i was dating MR BEAN ~

love !

I have gt so much to blog about today !! so much to rant about …. but im gonna put it aside as this post is purely just for my love, k ng ~

happy 3rd month anniversary ! i love u

though we had not been togther for a very long time, it seems like we have been dated for ages .. i jus enjoy and treasure the time we spend each and every miute together .. u know how much u mean to me.. and i understand how much u love me ..

u put up with my temper, my recklessness … my everything .. u advise me so much .. my temper my everything .. thank u baby ! )

i know i haven change much about scolding ppl who pises me off .. but i really do feel that im must calm now a days … i mean i still curse at ppl who irritates me la but …. i think they deserve it … like the girl today ……… argh !!!

im so angry ! i know i sound like some bitch whom you guys may not wanna  know , but im not ok ! im nice .. provided your nice too me i think this is a nom for everyone out thr right .. i dont bully me .. i don backstab ppl .. i only curse at ppl who irritates me whom i think they derserve my…… very chun cursing. so in other words .. im really nice for those who know me well,im sure they understand me .. as for those who looks down me … nvm .. say what u like ..  

i hope ppl who should know this is a misunderstanding would eventually read this post .. other wise .. arh .. forget it .. ill just end up cursing tat that bloody idiot more … i hate mal**s seriously i do … so much … cus they have their brains born on their ass !

- worked for magners today . its our last working day and i had fun … so much laugher despite all those sweating .. i still enjoyed it every much ..

short but tiring day !! magners job @ boat quay with june had fun working … though it was raining !!! i love the uniform so much … catch us @ orchard road tml evening , get free coupons to redeem for a magners cider

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