can i die?
Byim so tired … put me to sleep please …
if i could turn back time , i would have choosen whats best for me and not what i like best .
i haven slept for days , i just want to have a good rest … like ill never need to wake up the next day , checking my mails , getting stressed out , acting again and again , im so tired
who can tell all my sorrows too , im really getting so tired .. i dont want to stop crying .. i dont wanna start thinking the minute i close my eyes .
i just wanna tell everyone i dint achieve anything at all, ALL THESE WHILE .. but cant . its a play that im in, there’s no return .
i hate you for causing me so much misery , i hate myself for thinking for a second that you would really love me, i hate myself for lying again and again that i would study hard this time round, yet failing . i hate myself for allowing you to BRAINFUCK me . i hate myself for skipping classes that allowed you to backstap me ! i hate myself for signing the attendance book for you when you werent in school! AND I HATE MYSELF FOR BARRED FROM EXAMINATIONS AND THAT I WASTED ALL THE MONEY THAT MY DAD PAID FOR . I HATE MYSELF FOR GIVING UP ON MY LIFE FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND MESSING MY WHOLE LIFE UP AND YES I HAVE NEVER REGRETTED BLOGGING ABOUT YOU GETTING PPL PREGNANT AND MINDFUCKING GIRLS , BECAUSE I HATE YOU SO MUCH . !! SO MUCH !!
YOU CAN JOLLY WELL THROW ANOTHER PUBLIC BIN ON MY HEAD, CIGG BUTT ON MY FACE , BUT IM STILL GOING TO SAY ” BASTARD I DONT REGRET BLOGGING ABOUT U ” AND RETRIBUTION WILL SOON HIT YOU OR YOUR LOVE ONES ”
im tired so tired , i really wanna sleep so much , so much , so much …
