break

back with my lastest post, all alone wishing my feelings were gone !! haven been updating since last mth , one simple reason , im was so lazy .. so relutant to jus log in and start blogging .

its days more to a fairly long break for me, its a good thing isnt it . i havent been able to take a good rest off since months back , its been a bad year, alot of bad things!! And im jus so tired of everything. guys come and go dont they?

 goods guys are not appreciated by me even knowing that they are always there for me, i have got no idea why. . but the bad ones stays by me through the night , especially when im alone and when i start to recall all those memories that tramatize me so much. why ?  knowing it was all a lie, yet i just cant put u out of my mind. i know i gotta be strong, cus around the world, life has to go on. i know i have got to put u out of my mind, as im breaking down i have always wished, we would be more then friends, now that your gone, its too much more then i can take.

dont ask if i love him, cus i dont . dont ask if i still miss him cus i haven got a answer myself since then. i just dont know who am i . what the fcuk am i doing at times . i seriously dont. !!! i messed up my whole life with just one wrong move , i got my self so emotional that i ended up creating so much shit for myself.!! im starting to hate u , felicia ng

i got myself so drunk couple of weeks back, right beside him. my all time good guy with me hiding under a chair, vommiting so much! like what the fuck .. i dont get drunk, i usually stop drinking when i know im getting tipsy but things have been changing so much .. so much that i cant even recongnize myself .

whats really bothering me now i don know . . deep inside me i just feel so …….empty.

updates on my previous week .. !! celebrated my birthday at power on the 28th ! was really glad not only those we invited came but those i nv expected turned up ! u guys made my night . thank u so much .. and of cus those lovely presents, i love all of them ! i really do !  and lastly its finally coming my last present of the year … hahahs MY WALLET !! cant wait for it .. im simply cant !!! why must your off day be so so far away . !! hump ! hahahs

was too busy clubbing , i just totally forget to snap pictures !!