How much would you change for love ?!

i change quite abit on my side. loves seem to be every lil thing in me in the past, but i guess it changed

i learned to takes thing lightly, not throw as much temper as i did before. cus its so fucking stressful.

just a lil mistake would make be blow up , but now i learn to relax and perhaps even talk things out .

i wanna be myself . i love working for events i know how much it worries u but the fact is i love my job

give me back my freedom , this month seriously suck big time Big Big time !! i have been feeling so stressed up ever since your got yourself in all those SHIT ! totally uncalled for !!

crying seems to be my routine whenever you walk out that door in the morning ! not knwing if that would be the last time ill see u ! its nerve wracking . maybe it seem like bullshit to you but its really making me  ……….. wanna break down.

i just feel like vending all my anger onto someone and im sorry it happens to be you. but im trying hard to stop, yet at the other side you nagging at me non stop . . UNDERSTAND ME PLS …

UNDERSTAND ME ….. !!

or maybe we were doom from the start and never meant to be .

did a event for satair yesterday night @ arena with pretty babe val ! i just love working with these girls …

had hell lots of fun … it wasnt really working for us , we kept drinking and drinking and drinking sang along with the crowd , share the all-so-sick singapore experiences with those ang mo’s and there we are in arena enjoying our ladies nights right after work !!! till feli nearly gt wasted ! baby kept complaining feli din know how to take care of herself .. !! but the fact is i drank bcus i was ……………………………. who the ”f” knows how i feel !

baby headed down to pick lil feli, thank u my dear . hugs

will be working for superbowl this 8th feb early in the morning with my two gergeous , aeryn and anna !! 2 A’s makes feli a left out !! arghh ..

time check ! its 2.11am in the morning my boy’s asleep i have got nothing to do ! totally .. makes me wanna hit the clubs soon … i wanna dance on the dance floor like no ones business , drink till i gt wasted though i do hate the feeling of it … the after affect that causes me to feel like i wanna die .. but thats what i wanna now ! i wanna have tons of ppl dancing round me but just one right beside me after that long night when can i ever do that .. !!!!

i need a good break, i know its shocking to be to reading this : like i wanna a good break ! WTF i hv been slacking 1/2 of my 20 years away and i still need a break !! i mean i need a break …. from work from home from relationship from everything for jus one night ! i wanna party like no tml ! hump ….

some particular log were just ransack by him . but what was i suppose to do at that point of time, does it seems that i made up a lie on how pathetic i was at that period of time ? maybe it seems to you

but I DID NOT. !

yes i love him and that point of time so much that i din care of whats gonna happen next nor did i care of how others are going look at it . but not now.

how sickening can u get, by phrasing it as though i was suppose to walk away . slamp that bloody glass door , slap his gf and leave .

i couldnt at that time , and i dint wan too .

enough of me ranting here , it seem to you like i had it asking for all along , yes maybe i do

-thanks mr bf-

update: its another day of work tml at arena in the evening for some poker event. 9.30pm and im off for work!!!:D yeppie will be working with my lovely babe and im so excited with the meetup with mr walter !!

its 29.01 !!! claire 1st birthday chalet @ cheveron jurong !!! will be heading over in a hour or two ! yeppie i cant to see that cutie girl and of cause all my gergeous looking babes that ill be meeting up again ! no more face drawing today pls .. bcus feli is heading off for a gathering in the night with baby and his brothers

hohoho . someone was so so so so sweet to top up my card for me yesterday at 2am, i wonder who is that , anyway ken ken loves u to the core ! hahahs but like i said before you will nv make it infront of me ! hahahhahs ! bleahs !!!

been such a long time since i work , and now my hand is aching so much !! hahahs did a event at expo yesterday for APB-RWS, will be working tml as well feb’s gonna get better and better and better !!!

im so in need of cash , the date seem to get nearer and nearer and im getting so worried for him.

its so near to cny …im gonna get my hair done before cny since daddy has alrdy pass me my 500$ cash voucher  !!! omg i seriously cant wait ! daddy will be overseas and so we will be heading out all alone how boring can that be . mummy is not gonna drive cus she is so so so lazy too ! im gonna meet up with baby to gamble and im gonna win his money ! and if he does win mine he better return me .. hahahs who’s gonna resist such a good deal ! eh !

feli win’s ken money = FAIR TOTALLY FAIR IM GOING TO GO FOR HIGH TEA

ken win’s feli money = PLAN A : return it all to me and i wont say a second word/ PLAN B : buy me something with that money you just won ! hahahhas !!

and not only that im gonna go over to fei hui laoshi mums place as usual !! we gonna start to win $$ again !! hohoho .

okokok even of ranting all of my nonsense here, babes i guess your more interested in this :

8 FEB – EVENT I NEED 2 GIRLS WHO ARE ABLE TO WORK FROM MORNING – NOON

PAY : TBC

TIME : 6.30AM – NOON (TBC)

OUTFIT: NOTHING SLEZZY,EITHER SPORTY OR DRESS

EMAIL ME YOUR COMCARDS TO FELICIAWORKSPACE@HOTMAIL.COM !

i need some partying with my chicks !!!!

anyway … i had lots of fun at anna’s 18th birthday last 22.01 though it was more like a small gathering for us we had tons of fun drawing on each other’s face ! hahahs .. pity honey couldnt join us or ill get to draw on her pretty face hahahs bird bird !!!

will be heading for karaoke with mummy tonight in the evening been a long long time since i sing !!! of cus i do sing infront of my lappy .. like my own mini concert … but … eh … haven been to those karaoke rooms for a long long time and i miss it !!

this few weeks was pack with fun and laughter … !!! i hope it goes the same for this week yeppie would be heading to claire’s chalet birthday this weekend as well, followed by meetup with Zhihong and company woo….

lala ! and one more thing … check out the new HTC HD2 !!! TOTALLY COOL !!! MUCH BETTER THN IPHONE AND I WANNA GET IT … !!! **HINT HINT TO SOMEONE ** HAHAHHAHS !!! BLEAHS !!!

HD2 VS IPHONE

HD2 ROCKS !!! SORRY IPHONE USERS ! HAHAHAHS !

its exactly 12 hours more ! if i could just stop the clock from ticking .. how nice would that be.

listening to the CD darling passed me this evening before he left for home .. love the songs in it !! makes me tear while listening to it. . baby im not sure if ur going to be reading my blog anytime before u leave tml morning or will u only be reading it months later. .

memories u left for me are enough to last a life time. . i love u and i need u here with me. . im not as strong u think i am .. deep down in me i fear everyday .. be it you leaving or whatever . ill be your good girl i promise u . no skipping of lunch , ill take my vitamins everyday, ill excercise and not FB so much !

ill be seeing u ltr for breakfast early in the morning . i don want you to leave …. but whatver it is u’ gotta call me if u can.. jus like tt day ill be waiting …no matter what time my phones gonna ring .. ill be waiting .. and ill be waiting for you to return home, back to me.

i love u ! and im not acting i know i need u. it may sound deceiving but its not . for all i know your a part of me .

FELICIA (”v”) KEN

Just a lil update !! headed off for steak feast at chicago’s place, their standard dropped so much that it kind of suck now but nevertheless i enjoyed it with my love !

as promised baby said he would bring me out on sunday !!! yes yes it was yesterday !! :D we were suppose to ice skate but plans changed early in the morning bcus baby’s back is still v pain breaks my heart to see him hurt so much. i think i shld be dr ng soon … feli should start learning how to massage … how to relocated a bone if it comes off and etc hahahahahs !!! Call me .. DR FELCIA NG ! hahahhahas LOL

we decided on the plan to head to pasir ris park for some bicycle riding, ages since i last rode one .. and so … i have got excuses to ….. sit behind relax … and put my legs on top without peddling ! hahahs … mr macho does the job hahahs … .. not that i cant ride a bike as u can see on my fb status … baby’s claims that i cant ride one and he is wondering if i know how too . ! of cus i do ! jus that he was too heavy and thats why i lang ga into the grass patches .. and it was also becus he keep shifting my chair !!!! and not to mention he KEPT LAUGHING AT ME !

i have nv felt so happy outdoors hahahs simply bcus i hate the sun … but darling made the day perfect for me !!! with lots of love … a simple meal infront of the sea and ……. of cus laughing at me la .. but it made my day ! and and and … last but not least your sweet words make me melt !

I LOVE YOU BABY !

SHOCKING !! YES I KNOW IT IS !!  i haven been blogging for a month ..

lalala~ i hate it when i have got to let go of bloggy !! simple reason because my web host claim that my blog was hack months ago and he paid it for me. hence i have got to pay him back before i can get my files sended to me . what do you guys say ? i paid for my design but he is only going to send me the backup files when i pay him the money i so call owe him . ^RT&@(!*^R!T*&()@TE!$!! 

whatever it is , i might be getting a new bloggy host by bf .

so farewell to old posties !!! byebye to all those memories !

anyway … ITS OUR 1ST ANNIVERSARY TODAY !!!! i love you baby !!!!

many more months and years to come . muacks hugs hugs !!!

updates on my first korea virgin trip ! hahahhsa !!! i had hell lots of fun there !!! but how fun can it get without my baby boy by myside . i miss him like 24hours a day for 11 days in a row ! phew ! im finally back ! no more meeting online and those love sick feeling !!!

it was – 14C on the first day we arrived hell of a cold !!! -11C for the next few days … headed up to the ski resort for some now slide , fun fun fun !!! we even gotta see snow !!! heavy snow !! infact it snowed the last few days of our trip , heavily … very heavily !!! good thing we got back in time . or else we would be stuck in seoul for a week at least .. cus as reported 2009 end year snow was the heaviest throughout the past few years … so heavy that flights were canceled . ppl aint able to go to work at all . ! LUCKY US !